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Feeling a bit brain dead, though. Spent several hours last night trying to adapt part of the code to a Crazed Imaginations tool and ran myself in circles. Sigh.
Greg will be over within a couple of hours. That will probably get me back on track.
I've been debugging the cast only section of crazedimaginations.net for three days. Getting nowhere. PHP-nuke is reasonably sophiisticated collection of scripts but it has terrible debugging help. Chasing down a problem is an exercise in patience.
This Saturday is the start of a Landmark Education Self Expression and Leadership Program. These are normally about three months, but the holiday breaks have this one running until February. In this program, every participant has a coach. Five participants to one coauch, Four or Five coaches to a head coach. I will be a head coach. The women who was leading the program called Monday to tell me that she is unable to leadi the SELP. I've heard nothing about a replacement yet. It might get cancelled. In lots of ways, I will be happy if it does, but in a few very important ways, I will not be happy at all. Sigh.
Even with one member of the household moving out, we are going to increase in size. There's no more room. I'm having trouble getting to the landlord about adding another apartment. We might end up moving just because we will be sqeezed to the breaking point. That is not the way I would wish things to go. Well, it will go as it does and we will deal.
I've been chatting on AIM. Who would have though. Rocky friends mostly. Long chats with two young folks. I like it, god help me. I will have to rartion that activity! I have to check for a AIM client for linux. I'm sure AOL doesn't support one. Dumping windows might solve the long chat problem. ;)
It is very, very good for my ego when a woman says to me, "How do you DO that." It's been a common responsse. The sample size is a bit small, but still.
On slightly unrelated note, the Crushes are still going strong. Several in Crazed Imaginations. A few from other venues. I've been told a few times that my crushes are just having the hots for people. But it doesn't feel to me how it looks in others. Apples and Oranges, though. Might be, though. Amost always, it seems, the lusty feelings show up after I decide I am crushing on someone. Maybe it's the only time I let myself feel the lusty feelings?
At a recent party, I was Very Carefully keeping my hands to myself. And very much wanting my hands on a couple of other people. There was a delicious discomfort about it. And envy. Other people were being touchy-feely with them. I spent some time trying to decide if there were long standing permissions (I think there are), or folks taking advantage of the drinking (I hope not). No one seemed upset by any of the touching. (music in head; Dream Lover)
Music suddenly replaced with: "I want to sing and dance." So much for being a horn dog. :)
I realized on Monday that I have had good friends for the longest stretch. That is, I have friends right now that I have had for more than ten years, Not couting my first wife, daughter and birth family, that doubles any previous term of friendship. And I see no signs that my long term friends and I are growing apart. Of course, it helps that I love them. :)
The construction folks who were jackhammering all over the place in your courtyard, built forms in short order and poured the concrete today for the new sidewalk. That is going to leave the landscape repair. Should be less noisy. I hope. And we will regain our former level of privacy.
I saw Andi (another old friend) on Sunday. She has cut her hair short because she has been swimming regularly. It looks good on her. I made a very strong request that she not drop out of my life again. :) She wants a sense of community. I have one or three to offer as choices. I hope she takes one. She's mom to two other friends who both part of my family.
Several projects are moving again. The one I find myself must excited about is the extended followup for HAI workshoppers. It's an structured framework for ten sessions to strengthen one's ability to love, be loved and to spread love. Whee. I'm really looking forward to completing the creation and scheduling a pilot. My hope is to have one in LA and SD that run at nearly the same times so someone could make up a module if need be.
I played my keyboard for Donna Marie over the phone. I was praised. It seems I need my ego to be stroked more than I thought. I beamed so brightly that the people in my house had to put on sunglasses. 'Course, they are cynics.
Enough of this and back to work. Well, off to make a pot of coffee. Maybe with Baileys.
Never Postpone Joy. Life is good. Hi Alix. Hi Stef. Love you.
Greg will be over within a couple of hours. That will probably get me back on track.
I've been debugging the cast only section of crazedimaginations.net for three days. Getting nowhere. PHP-nuke is reasonably sophiisticated collection of scripts but it has terrible debugging help. Chasing down a problem is an exercise in patience.
This Saturday is the start of a Landmark Education Self Expression and Leadership Program. These are normally about three months, but the holiday breaks have this one running until February. In this program, every participant has a coach. Five participants to one coauch, Four or Five coaches to a head coach. I will be a head coach. The women who was leading the program called Monday to tell me that she is unable to leadi the SELP. I've heard nothing about a replacement yet. It might get cancelled. In lots of ways, I will be happy if it does, but in a few very important ways, I will not be happy at all. Sigh.
Even with one member of the household moving out, we are going to increase in size. There's no more room. I'm having trouble getting to the landlord about adding another apartment. We might end up moving just because we will be sqeezed to the breaking point. That is not the way I would wish things to go. Well, it will go as it does and we will deal.
I've been chatting on AIM. Who would have though. Rocky friends mostly. Long chats with two young folks. I like it, god help me. I will have to rartion that activity! I have to check for a AIM client for linux. I'm sure AOL doesn't support one. Dumping windows might solve the long chat problem. ;)
It is very, very good for my ego when a woman says to me, "How do you DO that." It's been a common responsse. The sample size is a bit small, but still.
On slightly unrelated note, the Crushes are still going strong. Several in Crazed Imaginations. A few from other venues. I've been told a few times that my crushes are just having the hots for people. But it doesn't feel to me how it looks in others. Apples and Oranges, though. Might be, though. Amost always, it seems, the lusty feelings show up after I decide I am crushing on someone. Maybe it's the only time I let myself feel the lusty feelings?
At a recent party, I was Very Carefully keeping my hands to myself. And very much wanting my hands on a couple of other people. There was a delicious discomfort about it. And envy. Other people were being touchy-feely with them. I spent some time trying to decide if there were long standing permissions (I think there are), or folks taking advantage of the drinking (I hope not). No one seemed upset by any of the touching. (music in head; Dream Lover)
Music suddenly replaced with: "I want to sing and dance." So much for being a horn dog. :)
I realized on Monday that I have had good friends for the longest stretch. That is, I have friends right now that I have had for more than ten years, Not couting my first wife, daughter and birth family, that doubles any previous term of friendship. And I see no signs that my long term friends and I are growing apart. Of course, it helps that I love them. :)
The construction folks who were jackhammering all over the place in your courtyard, built forms in short order and poured the concrete today for the new sidewalk. That is going to leave the landscape repair. Should be less noisy. I hope. And we will regain our former level of privacy.
I saw Andi (another old friend) on Sunday. She has cut her hair short because she has been swimming regularly. It looks good on her. I made a very strong request that she not drop out of my life again. :) She wants a sense of community. I have one or three to offer as choices. I hope she takes one. She's mom to two other friends who both part of my family.
Several projects are moving again. The one I find myself must excited about is the extended followup for HAI workshoppers. It's an structured framework for ten sessions to strengthen one's ability to love, be loved and to spread love. Whee. I'm really looking forward to completing the creation and scheduling a pilot. My hope is to have one in LA and SD that run at nearly the same times so someone could make up a module if need be.
I played my keyboard for Donna Marie over the phone. I was praised. It seems I need my ego to be stroked more than I thought. I beamed so brightly that the people in my house had to put on sunglasses. 'Course, they are cynics.
Enough of this and back to work. Well, off to make a pot of coffee. Maybe with Baileys.
Never Postpone Joy. Life is good. Hi Alix. Hi Stef. Love you.
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I like preening though. So I will let the ego come out and play. :)
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E=egoboo
W=number of women saying "how do you DO that?"
L=number of other lovers of said women
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crush vs "the hots"
and i have crushes on MOTSS, while i never feel any sexual attraction to them.
glad to see you're feeling so good!
Re: crush vs "the hots"
It isn't quit romantic in the soc.romance way, though. Gag me with a spoon!
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In the meantime, I will enjoy my crushes. :)