Sigh

[outlier_lynn]

manhattan posted this paper on giftedness. I made a quick reply that part of the last paragraph of Internal Factors "The gifted individual's drive to understand, to question, and to search for consistency is likewise inherent and intense, as is the ability to see possibilities and alternatives. All of these characteristics together result in an intense idealism and concern with social and moral issues, which can create anxiety, depression, and a sharp challenging of others who do not share their concerns." fit me to a tee.

Reading the paper and thinking about it at length, and the whole damn paper fits. (I've been measured at approximately 150 IQ depending on what set of tests.)

I always knew that study should be done on the social aspects of giftedess. Now that it has, it is highly depressing in general and utterly depressing personally.

My idealism often turns to cynicism if I'm not paying attention. And I have a vision for the world that includes peace and love.

Reading this paper makes me think I've been pissing into the wind. It won't happen. It can't happen.

I've been wasting my time and anoying the pig.

Sigh.

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[quoting-mungo.livejournal.com]

Not trying, though, certainly won't make it happen any more. For what it's worth...


-Alexandra

[machineplay.livejournal.com]

What I resent is how crippled many of us end up. I usually test over 160 and my brother over 180. We're both walking disaster areas, though he's far better since he went on Ritalin. I want to know WTF is wrong with us, really. We're not the only ones, either. I know a lot of exceptionally bright people who have been crushed by life.

I agree with Alex, though... not trying isn't going to change anything. We might want to redirect our energies to smaller things than the whole world, that's all.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

I could have written this entire post (by just plugging in a different IQ score), but when I find myself feeling this way, I remind myself that even if none of it means shit, or ever ends up meaning shit in the future, I've still lived the best life possible if I've lived true to my ideals. I don't think cynicism and despair are actually unreasonable reactions to the enormity of what remains to be done in the world, but for me, they're unproductive, so I feel okay in doing my best to dismiss them.

[machineplay.livejournal.com]

I so love your icon... G*d, I need that on a tshirt or something.

[serenejournal.livejournal.com]

*grin* I made it (and this one) on coolarchive.com (http://www.coolarchive.com/logogen.cfm). I like their logo generator a lot.

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[machineplay.livejournal.com]

LMAO... those are both great! :)

[firecat]

My idealism often turns to cynicism if I'm not paying attention. And I have a vision for the world that includes peace and love.
Reading this paper makes me think I've been pissing into the wind. It won't happen. It can't happen.

The world includes a lot of peace and love...only, it also includes other things, and it probably won't include only peace and love any time soon.

Way I see it, one has some degree of choice, not about what one can perceive, but about what one chooses to focus on.

[patzilla]

Thanks for posting that. I have one son who is diagnosed with bipolar disorder, oppositional defiant disorder and ADHD, the other one is diagnosed with ADHD, and he is considered gifted in science. Very interesting read, sheds quite a different perspective on things which means I should probably switch some gears for the both of them. Much appreciated, sir. :-)