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I have mood swings like every other human being. I have times when I'm sure that my lot in life must be punishment for the sins of a past life. And I sometimes envy what I see other people have. And I sometimes complain about it all.
But that stuff doesn't generate my life. A lot of it gets said in my LJ. Hell, a lot gets said to the various people who are my coaches. But none of it is said with resignation or cynicism. At least not for any length of time.
Does crappy stuff happen? Yes. Do I make really bad decisions from time to time?Yes. Do the things I say or do sometimes cause some problems for me and the people around me? Yes.
I'm not living a perfect life. I've never expected to. And I don't really want to.
And my life has moments of profound sadness. Hooray! It means I am present to and can feel emotions deeply. My life has moments of supreme joy, too. And love.
And my days, even when a little worry creeps in, are filled with wonder. This goes beyond any dream I ever had as a teen or young adult.
I live so far outside the box I thought I was confined to that I consider it nothing short of miraculous. It's a great way to live. It might not be what another would call a great life, but it works well for me. Very, very well.
For those I have moved, touch and inspired over the last 10 years, thank you for the privilege of serving you. For those who have moved, touched and inspired me, thank you for contributing to my life.
Love, in all the common forms that one can think of, is a gift. Even if it occasionally tricks us into breeding. (That one's for Amy.)
But that stuff doesn't generate my life. A lot of it gets said in my LJ. Hell, a lot gets said to the various people who are my coaches. But none of it is said with resignation or cynicism. At least not for any length of time.
Does crappy stuff happen? Yes. Do I make really bad decisions from time to time?Yes. Do the things I say or do sometimes cause some problems for me and the people around me? Yes.
I'm not living a perfect life. I've never expected to. And I don't really want to.
And my life has moments of profound sadness. Hooray! It means I am present to and can feel emotions deeply. My life has moments of supreme joy, too. And love.
And my days, even when a little worry creeps in, are filled with wonder. This goes beyond any dream I ever had as a teen or young adult.
I live so far outside the box I thought I was confined to that I consider it nothing short of miraculous. It's a great way to live. It might not be what another would call a great life, but it works well for me. Very, very well.
For those I have moved, touch and inspired over the last 10 years, thank you for the privilege of serving you. For those who have moved, touched and inspired me, thank you for contributing to my life.
Love, in all the common forms that one can think of, is a gift. Even if it occasionally tricks us into breeding. (That one's for Amy.)
Thank You Lynn!