Rambling

[outlier_lynn]

Just a lot of free association under here.
I've listened to Guys and Dolls on Aeire's computer over the last couple of days. I think I've never seen that movie. How could I have missed it? Probably 'cause it has Frank Sinatra in it and I was never a Sinatra fan.

Now I'm listening to Music Man. Ah, yes. I am a big fan of that movie. A big fan.

The characters are overblown. Bigger than life. but I can map many of those characters to people I know in Real Life. It's really funny. Sad sometimes, but funny.

Hell, I can map a couple of those characters onto me. Sometimes that's sad, too. :)

I got an unexpected surprise in the mail today. A check for $55 from Southwestern Community College. They pay very slowly. This was modeling I did two months ago. Nice to have the money. Also, in the mail, though, was a bill from the medical equipment supplier who sold me my CPAP. They want $200. I'll be talking to them! Between their data-free invoices and TriCare's undecipherable benefits statements. I am thoroughly confused. I am going to make them show me why I owe them more money.

It's warm here. Just warm enough that I am perpetually sleepy. And earlier today, Tony cooked bacon. I haven't quite recovered from that. My stomach is still churning a little and I've got periodic cold sweats. The smell of burning animal fat is nearly gone, but enough remains to keep me from recovering. I've got to put some kind of door between the office and the kitchen.

Rocky was a lot of fun last night. I've posted that already. Interestingly, though, I find that I like doing tech as much, or maybe more, than I like performing. But I don't want to do just one little job. I want to do a lot of work or it just doesn't seem worth it. Nice to notice that. When I'm not performing, I expect I will keep myself active moving props and assisting performers. I'm not fond, though, of yelling callbacks. I think it's a circular thing, though. I don't like it because I am not good at it and I'm not good at it 'cause I don't like it. Sigh. I'll have to deal with that eventually, I think.

A couple of things have come up in the last few weeks. They have come up before and I've put them aside. I'm pretty sure I was making myself wrong or incompetent or something. I've realized, though, that I was just making up some stories. Here's the big one that keeps coming up. I don't want to be in charge. I don't want to be a boss. I'm not interested in that kind of responsibility. I want shared responsibility and shared effort. Team work. Everyone contributing what they creatively can to some project. That's where the juice is. That's where my coaching business would go. And that is why I love the SELP.

And it's why I love Crazed Imaginations. Once in a while Amy will pull the "I"m cast director" line out to push something she wants. But mostly she make strong suggestions and the cast goes with her. When we are at the show, people are doing what needs to be done. Sometimes well and sometimes not so well. But the show happens each week because there are many people willing to step in and do what needs to be done.

With that in mind, then, training and development within cast might be better accomplished always thinking in terms of the team or the big picture. When the major props get moved, for instance. Rather than just "at this time," the training could be more about what is going on on the stage and how will the movement of the prop affect the players or distract the audience. That way the person learning the prop would have a better chance of dealing with something out of whack.

That's enough. I'm too uncomfortable to continue to type. The effort is more than I can keep up at the moment.

Comments

[aeire.livejournal.com]

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[aeire.livejournal.com]

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[scixual.livejournal.com]

"It's warm here. Just warm enough that I am perpetually sleepy. And earlier today, Tony cooked bacon. I haven't quite recovered from that. My stomach is still churning a little and I've got periodic cold sweats. The smell of burning animal fat is nearly gone, but enough remains to keep me from recovering. I've got to put some kind of door between the office and the kitchen."

So, what's up with bacon-phobia?

[crazed-lynn.livejournal.com]

Not a phobia. The smell of hot animal fat makes me queasy and bacon is the worst.

[scixual.livejournal.com]

Interesting. Is that a remnant form your veggie days?

I wonder -- mightn't the LM technology work here? Seems it would be more workable to "disappear" this effect than to build a door to wall off the kitchen when someone grills meats.

[crazed-lynn.livejournal.com]

This is a forever thing. I can remember having to leave the kitchen when I was little. Bacon is the worst, but anytime there is sizzling hot animal fat, I have a physical reaction.

I use my LM training, and other training, to settle my stomach. But the as long as the smell is there, I have to keep up the "mantra" or the reaction comes back.

[scixual.livejournal.com]

Interesting.

What would the Landmark technology say to that?