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There I was, sitting in the Self Expression and Leadership Program. Minding my own business and thinking to myself, "I'm feeling really good." Yep. There I was. Of course, I had completely resisted going to the Landmark Center because I felt blah. I didn't want to be around a bunch of people. Especially a bunch of people having a good time.
So there I was. And suddenly I realized that for the last two months or so I've been having a great life when I'm on a coaching call for the SELP or in the classroom of the SELP. And ONLY on those two occasions. The rest of my life ranged from okay to miserable.
Wasn't that a great thing to see? Then I looked around my recent history. I wanted to know what happened. What incident or event threw me into a tailspin and caused the possibility of life to disappear in all areas of my life that isn't SELP?
I saw it almost at once.
I have declared that my life is about love and compassion. It is about spreading love in the world. I've been giving love away like gold coins assuming that everyone and anyone would step up and take as much as they could carry away.
It had never occurred to me that it might be like drinking from a fire hose for some people. I hurt someone. I added to misery. And not just a little. I stopped giving away love except where it was not just already accepted, but where being "in possibility" is expected. Hence, I was still handing out gold coins in the Landmark Education "bank" but not in my life.
And the person I am when I am not in possibility is not a very pleasant guy. A bull in the social china closet. Instead of creating love, peace and joy in every conversation, I tend to belittle and gossip in every conversation.
And MISERY ensues. For me. For those around me.
I hit a very big wall and gave up my transformation. That's over.
I am the possibility of love and compassion, passionate living and the creation of peace, love and joy in every conversation. And I will be sharing that possibility with the people in my life and with at least one new person every day.
So there I was. And suddenly I realized that for the last two months or so I've been having a great life when I'm on a coaching call for the SELP or in the classroom of the SELP. And ONLY on those two occasions. The rest of my life ranged from okay to miserable.
Wasn't that a great thing to see? Then I looked around my recent history. I wanted to know what happened. What incident or event threw me into a tailspin and caused the possibility of life to disappear in all areas of my life that isn't SELP?
I saw it almost at once.
I have declared that my life is about love and compassion. It is about spreading love in the world. I've been giving love away like gold coins assuming that everyone and anyone would step up and take as much as they could carry away.
It had never occurred to me that it might be like drinking from a fire hose for some people. I hurt someone. I added to misery. And not just a little. I stopped giving away love except where it was not just already accepted, but where being "in possibility" is expected. Hence, I was still handing out gold coins in the Landmark Education "bank" but not in my life.
And the person I am when I am not in possibility is not a very pleasant guy. A bull in the social china closet. Instead of creating love, peace and joy in every conversation, I tend to belittle and gossip in every conversation.
And MISERY ensues. For me. For those around me.
I hit a very big wall and gave up my transformation. That's over.
I am the possibility of love and compassion, passionate living and the creation of peace, love and joy in every conversation. And I will be sharing that possibility with the people in my life and with at least one new person every day.