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[outlier_lynn]

I still don't have a good answer for "Now what?" from last night's post.

But the side effects have been quite interesting. Nothing like the saying I repeat 10 times a week: What you resist persists.

I was much more comfortable at the show last night. Why? I wasn't busy trying to stop myself from having little fantasies about some of the folks in attendance. I made eye contact with a couple of people I mostly avoid. I didn't have any extra thoughts, I just didn't feel ashamed of the ones I was having.

That was the shocker! I had been feeling ashamed. Instead of working hard to not judge a couple of people for their choices, I actually just stopped judging them. If you know me and my cast, I'm pretty sure you have NO idea who I was judging nor who I was resisting. The obvious guess would be wrong. :)

As far as the obvious guess, I felt different with her, too. I don't know what that is about yet. I know it is a good thing for me, for her and for our friendship. I may not try to figure it out.

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[scixual.livejournal.com]

Nopw that you mention it, you DID seem to have "lightened up" a bit.

...and that's a good thing.

[rhps-mom.livejournal.com]

Yes, you did seem more relaxed. I haven't heard you shout callback that enthusiastically in quite a while. It was very nice to hear!!