Lunch, then calls

I'm going to eat. Then I'm making a set of calls I have agreed to make but have no real interest in making.

I have to generate some value in making these calls are they will not go well.

Later today I'm going to go play with a doggie.

Then it's the last night of SELP. I'm mostly glad of that. Say 95% glad.

Last night I noticed that I was living in a certain future of disappointment. I was going to be disappointed if I did the ILP with the dispensation. I was going to be disappointed if I had to withdraw. No wonder I was having trouble dealing with this circumstance!

I'm done with the "threat" of disappointment. I'm withdrawing from the ILP. So there.

Love.

ahhh. Goodness

Recently I made a post in which I talked about the value of networking and my former relationship to it.

My resume is in the hand of one person in my network. He works for Qualcomm. He has given it to one of the IT folks who is interested in talking to me. This is a good thing. I would not mind at all working for Qualcomm.

Love.

Something has shifted

I don't know what it is. I don't really care. I'm experiencing what Landmark calls a breakthrough result. It's a complete attitude shift on several key points. The thought of money in my hands and bank account after all these years of living on the edge is breaking up a lot of other conversations.
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Having walked through all those spaces in the last 24 hours, I've invented a new possibility with the intent to cement this all in place. The possibility I'm inventing for myself and my life is the possibility of being whole and complete in each moment.

It is a victory over the past in that I shan't be trying to correct for past poor decisions or for past failures. I'm now in a place of action without fear.

Yay for victories.

Irresistible

Have you ever had an irresistible impulse? In psychology, an irresistible impulse is a strong, spontaneous and irrational motivation to action. Every school of psychology considers this a problem in each and every case.

I don't.

We all have strong motivations for certain actions in our lives. And we consider being strongly motivated as a great asset.

We also consider spontaneity as asset. We generally associate this with our ability to have fun and our ability to adjust to rapidly changing circumstances.

If it's not "strong" or "spontaneous" that gives irresistible impulse it's bad name, the problem must be with irrational.

Here's the definition for irrational: not governed by or according to reason.

Must everything be governed by reason? Lord, I hope not! That would put the breaks on all things physically pleasurable from eating to sex. It would put the lid tightly on all things creative.

Way too much credit is given to "reason" as a source of behavior.

I say up with irresistible impulse and down with rationality. At least, sometimes. :)