I had a great big shock last night

There I was, sitting in the Self Expression and Leadership Program. Minding my own business and thinking to myself, "I'm feeling really good." Yep. There I was. Of course, I had completely resisted going to the Landmark Center because I felt blah. I didn't want to be around a bunch of people. Especially a bunch of people having a good time.

So there I was. And suddenly I realized that for the last two months or so I've been having a great life when I'm on a coaching call for the SELP or in the classroom of the SELP. And ONLY on those two occasions. The rest of my life ranged from okay to miserable.
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I am the possibility of love and compassion, passionate living and the creation of peace, love and joy in every conversation. And I will be sharing that possibility with the people in my life and with at least one new person every day.

Habituation

defined as: decrease in responsiveness upon repeated exposure to a stimulus

This the state of affairs for a human being. Sometimes this a good thing. We get used to our situation. We adjust. We adapt.

The problem though is that we get used to the stimulus we consider really, really great. We get used to having miracles in our lives. We get used to someone's love for us.

If you are like me, I can easily go down the path of "Is this all there is?" When I've gotten use to the great things in my life, I stop being thrilled about having great things and begin to wonder why I'm not having "great things." I get use to being loved and start wondering why nobody loves me.

I think I'm a greedy bitch. :)

I'm borrowing a daily practice from a friend of mine. Everyday, I will find a miracle in my life. Something that I created or caused.

Starting with the miracle of taking on this practice. ;)

In action

I'm in action in my life again. (I love "possibility.")

I find that taking actions -- actually doing things to further my life -- is where all the juice is. I'm actually far less interested in the results than I am in the actions and the immediate feeling of power that comes from it.

For instance, I just applied for a position with the Democratic National Committee as part of their election strategy for the Fall elections. The ad for the job contain no detail save "let's get Bush out of the White House."

I wrote an email in response with a tailored resume and availability. It is action, it is. And the pay is between $300 and $500 a week. That is what I call a great short term job. I can get some money in the bank. I'm certainly aligned with the mission.

But even if the DNC and I cannot find a good match, I feel good just getting my butt in gear!

Oh, and I love you.

Ceremonies and celebrations.

Friday and Saturday:

Wedding rehearsal, Michelle's concert, RHPS, Wedding, reception and party.

Sunday:

Sleep.