To do or not to do

That is the question.

I've been thinking a lot lately. What's that you say?
Oh, okay. I've been thinking a lot more lately.

What is the value of "do."

Most of my life, "do" has been something that was created for me by the various social pressures that I either accepted or rebelled against. All my doing or lack of doing seemed to be an act of rebellion or a fight for survival and security. No passion in either.

Doing as an act of rebellion gave me the momentary feeling of control over the things in life over which we have no control. It felt powerful and lasted a very short time. Like a drug high. I had to rebell at ever higher doses to get the same effect. then it just stopped working.

Doing as an act of survival had me stay in the Navy until an opportunity for retirement. Then it had me doing other stuff I hated for several years. The doing of all these things didn't provide any security.

Even though I am quite clear about checking the why I want to before I commit to doing, I still feel powerfully drawn to "I should be doing something."

I think doing should be something that one is called to do by the way one is being. In being there is passion. The passion will generate the "doing."

I just need to get off the notion that one must always be "doing" to justify existence.

Love and Light,
Lynn

Junkie?

Sigh.

I've been checking lj every fifteen minutes all day and getting frustrated that people are posting more. Can we say "obsessed" boys and girls....I knew we could.

Think I'll go for a walk!

Love and Light,
Lynn