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We had a small audience last night. Our numbers have slowly dropped off for the last month or so. It was a good audience, though. We all had good energy and lots of playtime fun was had by cast.
Tonight is my second Riff. This time at Cathedral. Much different setup. It will be interesting. In a little while, I'm off to put clothes in a dryer, get drinking water and visit a couple of wig shops.
I have to find a good way to do Riff hair without growing my own back out.
For as long as I can remember I have made up reasons why lust is just a part of my life. I love a long list that includes simple, unsophisticated reasons like health and fitness, more sophisticated metaphysical reasons, psychological reasons and many, many more. They are just bullshit reasons. Stuff I made up that all point to something is wrong.
The truth is, though, that I just don't experience lust. Never really have. I've pretended. I've substituted other feelings. The concept is as abstract and foreign to my experience of life as quantum physics. I know it exists and can be measured. But my experience of the world doesn't include it.
I feel cheated. And I'm pissed about it.
Tonight is my second Riff. This time at Cathedral. Much different setup. It will be interesting. In a little while, I'm off to put clothes in a dryer, get drinking water and visit a couple of wig shops.
I have to find a good way to do Riff hair without growing my own back out.
For as long as I can remember I have made up reasons why lust is just a part of my life. I love a long list that includes simple, unsophisticated reasons like health and fitness, more sophisticated metaphysical reasons, psychological reasons and many, many more. They are just bullshit reasons. Stuff I made up that all point to something is wrong.
The truth is, though, that I just don't experience lust. Never really have. I've pretended. I've substituted other feelings. The concept is as abstract and foreign to my experience of life as quantum physics. I know it exists and can be measured. But my experience of the world doesn't include it.
I feel cheated. And I'm pissed about it.