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I no longer remember the incident or the circumstance that created this, but nearly every time I hear Dancing Queen, I cry.
The memory is bitter sweet and I'm pretty sure it had something to do with realizing that my first real sweetheart wasn't really going to work out no matter how hard I wanted it to.
There is a strong flavor of resignation. I had gone from not believing in romantic love to strongly believing in it in the the course of two years. Then disillusion.
There are a few songs that create this feeling in me.
For the rest, show tunes was a bust for me. I couldn't understand what people were saying to me on the first and sometimes second try and that is, as always, frustrating. And the music was another round of odd bits for the most part. The company was good, though, even if I felt a bit left out 'cause I couldn't hear conversations.
Saw the doctor yesterday. The cholesterol medicine is working nicely. And he finally gave me some stuff for my runny, stuffy nose problem. Alegra D (which I think is going to be pretty weak ass from last nights experience) and Flonaise. We'll see. Slept just under five hours last night without waking up. Feel tired. duh. Took two of the damn Alegra D. Stuffed up when I woke up and my sinuses are draining now. The only thing new is that my throat is dry. Yay for adding another symptom.
The memory is bitter sweet and I'm pretty sure it had something to do with realizing that my first real sweetheart wasn't really going to work out no matter how hard I wanted it to.
There is a strong flavor of resignation. I had gone from not believing in romantic love to strongly believing in it in the the course of two years. Then disillusion.
There are a few songs that create this feeling in me.
For the rest, show tunes was a bust for me. I couldn't understand what people were saying to me on the first and sometimes second try and that is, as always, frustrating. And the music was another round of odd bits for the most part. The company was good, though, even if I felt a bit left out 'cause I couldn't hear conversations.
Saw the doctor yesterday. The cholesterol medicine is working nicely. And he finally gave me some stuff for my runny, stuffy nose problem. Alegra D (which I think is going to be pretty weak ass from last nights experience) and Flonaise. We'll see. Slept just under five hours last night without waking up. Feel tired. duh. Took two of the damn Alegra D. Stuffed up when I woke up and my sinuses are draining now. The only thing new is that my throat is dry. Yay for adding another symptom.
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