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Life sucks, then it doesn't.
Lately I have been melancholy. I have dragged out of melancholy several times over the last 6 months but fell back each time.
I love my life. Absolutely. There isn't one thing in my life right now that I want to have disappear. But something is missing.
I attended an introductory evening for the Human Awareness Institute (HAI) tonight. I am a HAI volunteer. There was nothing new and different at this intro. Part of the event was a paired sharing. During that share I found the lost key. I found the missing bit. I found out what was keeping my resignation alive and well.
It was me. I was doing it to myself. I had done exactly what I have sworn many times not to do. I created a detailed view of the future I want. Very detailed. Very impossible. I pulled the plug on my future because I had become attached to a particular view of it.
How did it happen, you say? Well, I know that too! I had stopped working on creating my family in my communities. I gave up on my communities. I gave up. In the face of no results, I quit.
M,K, Gandhi wouldn't have thought much of that!
Love. Community. Community. Love. Community.
Sigh.
I have found it. Declared the breakdown. Generated possibility. The next step is committed action.
Love and Light.
Lately I have been melancholy. I have dragged out of melancholy several times over the last 6 months but fell back each time.
I love my life. Absolutely. There isn't one thing in my life right now that I want to have disappear. But something is missing.
I attended an introductory evening for the Human Awareness Institute (HAI) tonight. I am a HAI volunteer. There was nothing new and different at this intro. Part of the event was a paired sharing. During that share I found the lost key. I found the missing bit. I found out what was keeping my resignation alive and well.
It was me. I was doing it to myself. I had done exactly what I have sworn many times not to do. I created a detailed view of the future I want. Very detailed. Very impossible. I pulled the plug on my future because I had become attached to a particular view of it.
How did it happen, you say? Well, I know that too! I had stopped working on creating my family in my communities. I gave up on my communities. I gave up. In the face of no results, I quit.
M,K, Gandhi wouldn't have thought much of that!
Love. Community. Community. Love. Community.
Sigh.
I have found it. Declared the breakdown. Generated possibility. The next step is committed action.
Love and Light.
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