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I intended to put in five hours last night, but couldn't stay awake. That's bad enough, for I start this two weeks behind!
I didn't sleep well either. I vaguely remember waking up and ripping the CPAP mask off my head because I couldn't exhale. (which feels exactly like not being able to inhale -- awful.
Slept fitfully after that fully waking up every few minutes.
Must have breathed through my mouth most of the night. This morning I have a serious case of scratchy throat.
I did have a dream last night that I remember.
I was 20ish and had two 20ish sweeties. We were a really happy family until one of the sweeties became pregnant by the other sweetie. I was thrilled, they were not. I was dumped. They listed off about 10,000 reasons why I should never be allowed to even speak to or be seen by anyone under the age of 15.
While they were listing off the reasons (so fast I couldn't hear most of them), I was seeing a "movie" of me with children. Thousands and thousands of them. All screaming and terrified of me. None of them were gnawing off a leg to get away, but I think that might only be because none were caught in a trap.
The seed for this one was Jeffery (12 month old) at the wedding yesterday. The crowd made a lot of noise at one point and it scared him. I was reminded of Kayla when she was about that age. She was terrified of facial hair. She couldn't even look at me (or anyone else with a beard) from across the room without having a fit.
Well, today has the serious chance of not sucking. I'm getting paid for two modeling gigs, I get to see several cast members tonight -- probably most of the one's I consider myself closest to (even if some them don't :).
All is good in the world. :)
I didn't sleep well either. I vaguely remember waking up and ripping the CPAP mask off my head because I couldn't exhale. (which feels exactly like not being able to inhale -- awful.
Slept fitfully after that fully waking up every few minutes.
Must have breathed through my mouth most of the night. This morning I have a serious case of scratchy throat.
I did have a dream last night that I remember.
I was 20ish and had two 20ish sweeties. We were a really happy family until one of the sweeties became pregnant by the other sweetie. I was thrilled, they were not. I was dumped. They listed off about 10,000 reasons why I should never be allowed to even speak to or be seen by anyone under the age of 15.
While they were listing off the reasons (so fast I couldn't hear most of them), I was seeing a "movie" of me with children. Thousands and thousands of them. All screaming and terrified of me. None of them were gnawing off a leg to get away, but I think that might only be because none were caught in a trap.
The seed for this one was Jeffery (12 month old) at the wedding yesterday. The crowd made a lot of noise at one point and it scared him. I was reminded of Kayla when she was about that age. She was terrified of facial hair. She couldn't even look at me (or anyone else with a beard) from across the room without having a fit.
Well, today has the serious chance of not sucking. I'm getting paid for two modeling gigs, I get to see several cast members tonight -- probably most of the one's I consider myself closest to (even if some them don't :).
All is good in the world. :)
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