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outlier_lynn) wrote2004-11-23 09:34 pm
outlier_lynn) wrote2004-11-23 09:34 pm
Hanging out
No, my fly isn't open and it's too damn cold for sitting in front of the computer with no clothes on. No, I'm just hanging out. I'm playing with my LJ style and listening to queen.
Earlier I got to let my testosterone save the day and had a whiskey sour. Now I'm home and thinking that life is good. Really good.
I always find it a bit strange that when I am presented with several viable options for changing my circumstances, I seem to more often than not choose what I already have. I've had one very serious request/offer to move out of state. Two years of rent free living.
But I've done that before. The other offer is less "real" but could be made real enough. And neither have sufficient appeal to have me considering them. I have roots here that are so strong that I am willing to endure a lot to keep them strong.
That doesn't mean that change isn't coming, it just means the change has no chance of being so drastic that I end up with a new life somewhere else. I'm done creating new lives.
Too many people that I would miss beyond endurance, I think. I was thinking of that earlier. I would be more heartbroken about leaving some of my Sweeties in San Diego that I was about the end of either of my marriages. I wish that wasn't an indictment of my marriages!
Earlier I got to let my testosterone save the day and had a whiskey sour. Now I'm home and thinking that life is good. Really good.
I always find it a bit strange that when I am presented with several viable options for changing my circumstances, I seem to more often than not choose what I already have. I've had one very serious request/offer to move out of state. Two years of rent free living.
But I've done that before. The other offer is less "real" but could be made real enough. And neither have sufficient appeal to have me considering them. I have roots here that are so strong that I am willing to endure a lot to keep them strong.
That doesn't mean that change isn't coming, it just means the change has no chance of being so drastic that I end up with a new life somewhere else. I'm done creating new lives.
Too many people that I would miss beyond endurance, I think. I was thinking of that earlier. I would be more heartbroken about leaving some of my Sweeties in San Diego that I was about the end of either of my marriages. I wish that wasn't an indictment of my marriages!