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Just got off the phone with Michelle. It was a last minute invitation to either go to the theater with Jim, her and her dad, or to babysit. I would have loved either, but it was too last minute.
Be that as it may, it did give me a chance to talk to Michelle and to set up a visit -- Tuesday at noonish.
I wanted to let her know that she was a major life-saver in the latest round of down into the pit. Her face would come into my mind in the darkest hours like a visiting angel. It's was always a particular picture of her which then lead to thinking about her mother, and other folks I know from Southern California HAI.
And a sense of love and acceptance would wash through me. Enough. It was always enough to keep me from downing in my own waste.
I viewed it all as a island of sanity in a criminally deranged world, though. So it didn't get me out of the pit, but it did keep me from just quiting on life.
And, lord knows, it is love like that, friends like that, that give importance to any meaning I create for living a joyous life.
There are a handful of people who are that for me. It is a small but powerful bunch. They have the power to save a life without even knowing they are doing anything. :)
And once again I experience what being willing to create an uncertain future can bring.
Love.
Be that as it may, it did give me a chance to talk to Michelle and to set up a visit -- Tuesday at noonish.
I wanted to let her know that she was a major life-saver in the latest round of down into the pit. Her face would come into my mind in the darkest hours like a visiting angel. It's was always a particular picture of her which then lead to thinking about her mother, and other folks I know from Southern California HAI.
And a sense of love and acceptance would wash through me. Enough. It was always enough to keep me from downing in my own waste.
I viewed it all as a island of sanity in a criminally deranged world, though. So it didn't get me out of the pit, but it did keep me from just quiting on life.
And, lord knows, it is love like that, friends like that, that give importance to any meaning I create for living a joyous life.
There are a handful of people who are that for me. It is a small but powerful bunch. They have the power to save a life without even knowing they are doing anything. :)
And once again I experience what being willing to create an uncertain future can bring.
Love.