State of health

Stacey finally visited her doctor about her congestion/headaches. She has a low-grade sinus infection. That is why she has been exhausted for three weeks and has had a headache for more than a month.

Day two of the antibiotics and she is much, much better. This is a very good thing. Turns out, Hunter also has a low-grade sinus infection. It's why he hasn't really gotten over the cold a month ago.

Neither of these people complain much and both pass off physical discomfort. I'm happy they are both being treated now.

In other medical news, Stacey's dad is in really bad shape. He's been in really bad shape for a couple of years but just keeps hanging on. He might be close to letting go now, though. He has a tumor in one of his lungs. And it's bleeding. He has no chance of surviving a surgery because of his congestive heart failure. I think he's close to the end. Stacey is ready for that. Stacey's sister isn't quite ready, I think.

Like many old folks, he is consuming a great deal of his daughters' time. As I approach 60, I'm clearer than ever that I do not want to live a day passed my ability to care for myself for any chronic reason. It's very selfish of me, but I just won't want to deal with being tended day after day.

I need to update my health care directive.

Seldom act on my first impulse

Other than candy bars, I seldom act on my first impulse. This is really good. Sometimes my first impulses are entirely evil in nature. And I'm having one of those today. There are a few categories of behavior which generate this initial reaction from me. If I had a workable method, I would put the responsible assholes right out of business. I just can't think of a way.

Really, guys, it does not make you look better when you are consciously and purposefully standing on the necks of others.

That bridge is now fully burned and I will make no attempt to rebuild it. I am way to old to try and make nice with assholes no matter how powerful they think they are.

I will try really hard to not make any trouble that might slosh over onto my friends, but neither will I make another gesture of any kind in the general direction of .....

Fuck them and the ..... they rode in on.