Another day in paradise

Stacey is out of town again. And this separation is difficult. Not just for the physical reasons, although NRE has a lot of physical energy, but mostly because we had built up a way of being with each other that can't exist on the phone or in email.

The geographic separation has created a touch of emotional separation for both of us. This was to be expected. It doesn't always happen when a friendship becomes something more then is the creation of it is interrupted, but it is common enough. It just has us both being a touch awkward around each other.

Last night, however, in the short time we were alone, while I was looking into her eyes and stroking her face, I remembered exactly why I want to be in love, partnership and connection with this particular human being. My soul becomes light and the "nothing's wrong here" conversation lives like reality for me.

She is my queen and I will adore her while breath is available to me. After that, I can make no promises.

Love is.

I just never expected -- or wanted -- love to turn into romantic love again. I just wanted to play around at the edges of it. Falling into pointless, directionless crushes. Crushes without the worry that something more will show up. Sometimes does though. Did this time. Like a ton of bagels.

Not carpooling

These leaves open the chance for not going to Denny's after the show. I had hoped that a carpool would take that decision out of my hands. :) I think I'll probably not go to Denny's.

it's not hot (except where I'm sitting), but the humidity is still high. Too high. I have little energy and I'm feeling slightly ill. It's the feeling I get when I am way, way too hot. I'll be glad when the humidity drops. Mid-70s is too warm for me when the humidity is high.

Love.