Brain awake. So the rest of me is too.

No comfortable position for my body and no comfortable thoughts for my brain.
( Insomniac ramblings )

I've spent a lot off time trying different ways of being. There has only ever been one for me that worked. That's to be loving. It tames my dragons better than any other way of being I've found.

And tonight, I don't want to sleep alone.

going out

In the last few days I have left the house only when unavoidable. I have a tiny chore I've put off for a week. And right now, I'm having a hard time getting out of my chair to go take care of it. I have to to Mesa College and put 3 hrs down on my time card. Simple. And if I don't do it today, I will have worked 3 hours for free.

Other little things, too. Once I'm out of the house, it seems okay -- more or less. It's just taking me forever start moving.

And now is the time. I'll shower and shave and leave as soon as I push the "submit" button on my LJ client.

Damn

I've not even checked to see how much a replacement top for my car would cost. And that is now the only way to replace the back window. I figured it was very expensive. I found a top on-line for $175. And I think I can get a different color. New headlight lenses are anywhere from $75 to $150 a side. whew. Still, I could put a few hundred into the look of this car and be happy about it. :)

A short doze

in the right circumstance can do a lot to change one's mood. Well, okay. My mood.