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October 17th, 2004

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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 07:12 am
Rolled over this morning from my left side to my right uncovering my clear ear. Woke me right up cause the rain was coming down. And while I listened a particularly dense cell passed over head and it poured like hell for a couple of minutes.

The first several thoughts I had were about how this was going to fuck up my day. :)

Then as I gradually let all that go, I was thinking about the first hard rain we've had around here in a very long time. We really need it. The fire danger has been very high. We don't want the rest of San Diego County to burn to the ground.

I am VERY glad I cleaned up the boxes in the back yard Friday! I just wish I had applied another temporary patch to the holes in my car's back window. :)

It's a fine Sunday Morning. I'm feeling pretty good. Stuffed up pretty badly, sore throat. The normal morning stuff. But other than that, good.

Love.
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 08:39 am
that I have HAI training. I get a little frustrated with the Human Awareness Institute mostly because it operates in areas I have few skills. It's not a thinking game. :)

I love to analyze my life. Take it apart and put it back together. I like to look at how I arrived at some conclusion so that I can test it against some rational measure and against my personal philosophy.

But none of that will make the slightest difference to the way I feel about life. I can turn it into an intellectual exercise so quickly it make my head spin. :)

And that's where HAI comes into it.

I can actually experience a moment. I can feel the effects of my intellectual pursuit.

This is where I get the ability to feel the warm moments of my life. Otherwise, love is just a good idea and everyone should have some. :)

And it is how I can experience myself as whole. It is how I can be good enough and smart enough and competent. The actual experience of it rather than a verbal affirmation (which I only half believe at any time).

I denied, for most of my life, that the experience of something is where I have the reality of it. I no longer deny that.

It has a drawback, though. It is a challenge for me to accept something intellectually if I cannot have an experience of it. This is why I love hugs and non-erotic signs of affection. They are, for me, the experience of love.

The good news is that over the last few years, I've opened the iris on that light. I have many more ways in which the experience of love is available for me. I still like physical signs of affection best. :)

This morning has been a good one. The experience of love with Scix, Eric, Steph and Chris. It's a warm and soft moment.

Love.
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 12:32 pm
Well, I decided to add the bio picture delete function. No bid deal. That code was written a long time ago for the general bio create/modify/delete script. Just move it over and fold it in.

Yeah, right.

SEVERAL uncaught bugs later. :)

I'm going to have to rebuild the bio creation script. It's really clunky. It was the first really big solo project I had attempted in tcl. I've since moved a lot of functionality into packages which that script isn't using. It needs to. :)

I think I'll work on that this week.

Also, I have the new galleries script the way I want it (as of five minutes ago), but I haven't tested the automated creation script. I seem to be procrastinating. :) That will be done this week, too.

While debugging the admin scripts, I got tired of the way I was getting back to the admin index. Then the big Duh moment. I have a Special Menu option for the dynamic pages. Now anytime a page is generated (other than the admin index itself) from the admin area, the menu will have an administration link at the top. Silly boy.

Life is good. My day looks a lot different than I had planned and hoped for. But, that is also good. I was going to spend time with a stressed friend. But the stress broke like the end of a high fever last night. My friend is in high gear today. And that is worth upsetting my plans any time!

Not only that. But love is all over the place at Haven House this weekend. And it feels so good I could just cheer. In fact, .... I just did.

There is something so incredibly special about heart to heart connections between people.
Love. It sparkles.
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 02:38 pm
I just watched Spinal Tap for the first time.

That was funny.

Very funny.
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 02:45 pm
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 04:35 pm
I just had a chat with the woman who schedules me for modeling. I knew that there were several professional artists who were requesting me as a model, but I didn't know that all but one teacher/artist had been requesting me. And the one who hadn't doesn't like any model. :)

It is good to be good. :)
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004 07:03 pm
I made a slight change (that took way to long) to the bio script for crazed imaginations. I've been meaning to make this change, but that particular script is pretty messy. :) It gets overhauled this week.

However, one can now get the bio indexes by name or by the last date revised. This is a good change. :)

I was trying to be cute by adding a radio button above the links for date or name. But I couldn't get the links to actually be a submit. I must have tried ten things. Many of which I stole right out of books. The closest I got was a javascript error that my form had no properties. I investigate this further, I don't really like having the same link twice in the menu. :) And I do want them to look like links and not like submit buttons. I've run into this problem before and just went in a different direction. But I want to know why the book examples don't work!

Love.