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A very late Landmark night. Not because the completion evening of the SELP went long, but because Tamara and I see to talk for hours afterward.

Last night I asked for and received some excellent coaching from Tamara. dug down to the bottom of some things that have had me by the throat for the last few weeks.

It is amazing how quickly I can fall back into some very old worries and fears without noticing. This is especially true when the triggering incident is rare. The biggest differences, now, are that I can see that I am creating mud pies even if I don't immediately why and I don't create permanent damage.

In any event, a truck load of sadness has taken a hike. I'm sure some bits and pieces will come to visit, but I'm pretty sure the whole load won't arrive at the same time.

And remember, I love you all. And you don't have to do or be any particular way at all about it.

Ms. Badger, I want to give you a particularly large {{hug}} right now for your sadness.

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There are a number of people in my life who often inspire me about one particular issue: putting up with me.

I am outspoken about how I feel and it has given a few people cause to pause.

Yet these stalwarts remain close. I'm a happy camper that it is so!

And remember, I love you all.