This is good, real good.

On Saturday, the the SELP workday, I was moved to tears several times by the miracles in people's lives. It's been awhile since I was willing to feel that level of joy for someone.

Today, I was again moved to tears by the heartache of a dear friend.

It has been awhile since I was willing to allow that, too.

The cloud that has been raining on my parade seems to have finally passed over and the weather is clearing nicely.

From here, I can, once again, see how I let some pissy little fear stop me and then how that just turns my whole life upside down. The good thing, is that I'm faster at seeing it and dealing with it.

For my charges in the SELP, joy on you for your breakthroughs.

For my dear friend, I love you. I don't intend to forget you. And don't think you need to test it. Make no decisions while you are in pain. Please.

For the world, I am passionate about love and compassion. I am committed to creating love, peace and joy in every conversation.

Love.

San Diego Rocky Horror Picture Show

When one has

the full palette of emotions back, one must expect to feel sad some of the time. At the moment, that is the emotion at the top of the queue.

I am not depressed or even unhappy. I'm not in a dip. I have my eye's clearly on love and compassion. I am not stopped in any way by this visit. I'm just sad.

I know why, too. And it something doesn't break soon, I'll share it with the person who matters. For now, though, I'm going to just feel it.

I'm not going to allow myself to make up stories about what this sadness means. I'm just going to feel it. And cry a lot.

There is nothing to do -- besides have the conversation.

sigh.