Jealousy or not...

Sort of. Maybe.

I don't ever remember feeling emotion or set of emotions that I would call jealousy. Of course, I am basing that on what is reported to be the common reactions of people who say they are jealous and on descriptions of what people feel when they claim jealousy.

Envy. I do feel envy now and then. It is of this kind: "You have some. Why can't I?"

I've heard of flavors of jealousy that sounds like envy but operate from a scarcity model. It would be like this: "You have some. I want some. Why don' t you go away so I can have some."

I think I might be feeling that scarcity model of envy right now. It's interesting. I may call it jealousy just so I can say I've felt it as jealousy. :)

There is no flavor of "mine" in it, though. No tinge of possession or taint of entitlement. I don't feel any sense that I should have some and you should not. I have no feelings like I want to take something away from others.

Maybe this isn't jealousy.

It might just be good ol' fashion envy. It is very strong.

I like that. I had the nagging worry that I had lost my ability to desire. A low level concern that my passions were blunted. It does not seem to be the case.

Shit

The garbage grinder got overloaded and filled the trap with coarse bits of vegetables. Fine. It's a quick disconnect trap. No problem, right.

Yeah. Well, the three inch thin-wall pipe going to the trap was rotted. Very rotted. I touched it was greeted by the free flow of water. Sigh.

Tomorrow is a trip to a hardware store.

That means that tonight, the water to the sink needs to be off. No problem, right?

Yeah. Well, one valve worked exactly as expected. Shut the cold water right off. The other valve spewed water the moment it was turned from full on until it reached full off.

Yes. Old houses have charm. They also have aches and pains, creaky joints and a lousy temper.

It is time for a new keyboard.

I have replaced the key caps three times. The newest set is already wearing such that I can't read the key marking. At least these aren't worn all the way through like the first set.

The damn keys are sticking down. Cleaning hasn't seemed to help.

I have resisted replacing this keyboard because it has some special stuff on it. But I realized just now that I never use any of the special keys. Under Linux, they aren't set to anything.

It is also a four port usb hub. I don't use but one of those.

I think I'll have a new keyboard by the end of the week.