One reason

I was a little slow getting myself to a doctor about my knee. I knew more or less what was going to be said and I didn't want to hear it. I still haven't officially heard it.

I have an appointment in 8 days to see a doctor. I didn't want to waste my trip to the hospital, so I went to orthopedics and cornered a senior corpsman. I told him the story and current symptoms.

And, like I knew already, this will be a long, slow process. Slow to even get a prognosis. Yep. I'm gimpy for several months.

Yeah. Guess I'll get trained to see tickets. It will just about all I'm good for at the show.

It's not fair

Okay. 10 years ago, when I first injured this knee, I spent six months going through the hoops with doctors. Finally it was all agreed that I did require surgery. The surgery was scheduled for three months later. A month before the surgery, the damn knee healed.

For six months I could not walk on it without a crutch. And for six months, the pain of it would wake me up in the night if I tried to turn over. Then in the space of a few weeks, the pain went away and the knee was fine.

Well, not fine. It has been my "trick" knee ever since.

So, today I go to the doctor. I'm not actually going to see a doctor for 8 more days. I talked to a senior corpsman in Ortho who told me I'm in for months of recovery -- most of it with mild chronic pain punctuated with moments of screaming agony.

I've been sitting at my desk for several hours planning the next few weeks. This includes giving up my roles in LSOH a month from now. It includes going to a local thrift store and buying a used crutch. Figuring out what I'm going to do at the show for the next few months so that I won't be totally useless. And what I'm going to do about modeling.

All that planning and steeling myself for the inevitable future half year was for nothing. You know why? Because my goddamn knee just healed itself.

Oh, there is still some pain, but it's the residual kind. The pain of a bruise. The first hand trauma pain just went away. My knee is still a bit stiff, but I have full range of motion back. And walking is almost normal.

I'm not complaining, exactly. I do want my knee to be normal. But why does it have to get better a hour after my course of action has been charted? Why didn't it get better yesterday?

This does not incline me to believe in Yahweh, but Loki is looking more and more likely!

For the folks who asked...

Yes. Even though the knee is nearly 100% right now, I will still keep the appointment next week. This is the worst it's been in years, but it is a recurring problem.

And Little Shop rehearsal was WAY fun tonight. I earned a bottle of wine from veggiebelle for technical assistance which I shared with those assembled.

It's going to look really good again, I can tell. :)